I‘m now back on British soil and feeling that depressive holiday come down. The dreaded thought of going back to work had bugged my brain since we took off from Miami.

 

The first day back was ok as I just had a million emails to read but  yesterday, I left work feeling absolutely crushed. After I returned from lunch, my boss called me into a private meeting to tell me that her boss (the buyer) said he 'was not convinced' about my being right for the job! She acknowledged that a lot of it was down to her not doing the structured training she promised. But said he was getting on her nerves as she was  having to fight my corner!!!! Fight my corner? Fight my corner for what? I had had my review before going on holiday where although it was a bit of a shaky start, he seemed happy with what I was doing??? When did this all come from in my 2 days back. I had 250 emails to read on day one. I also to re-familiarise myself with everything and there was never a time that I sat on my arse doing nothing. I may not have always got the task priorities right in their eyes but I communicated what I was doing and there were no objections at any point...  Ahhh fuck this place!!  Why waist my energy! I'm so pissed right now; I can't even bring myself to write anymore......