Decisions. Decisions. So many different choices to work through. The pregnancy, the birth and then the mammoth task of parenting. Hospital or home birth? Drugs or natural? Mum’s way or my way? Organic or regular? Stay at home or childcare? Breastfeed or bottle? Smacking or naughty step? It just makes my head spin!!
As a woman who has always followed my instinct, everything I read about being a green parent rings bells. The minute I start seeing things about being natural, ethical, eco etc. I want to read more. I don’t care about not having lots of money to buy lavish clothes and toys for baby, what matters to me is temperament, confidence, manners, honour, and respect within our family unit.
While filling my head with all these different methods it really hits me that I have to stop and think about how I run my life and if it will suit us as a family? All those things that I like to think I do but secretly don’t do nearly enough will be exposed when I have this baby. I want my child to grow up watching minimal TV, loving books, being creative, expressive, artistic. All the things that I never really seem to have time to do but know these are things that help me grow and learn! If I want her to do these things then I have to set an example. This is not just about bringing another child into the world, its something that’s about to challenge my every fear, insecurity, and avoidance. If I want the best for my baby, I have to start with am I doing the best for me?
