I'm on the tube on my way to meet R to go to our first scan since this all happened. The scan will tell us if the baby has downs. We have to have these extra tests due to my being an older mum. I took the whole day off work as my car was still not ready and I couldn’t get a lift in this time. My morning was mixture of so many emotions. First felt knackered when I work up, then after breakfast felt like I needed a filthy Jenna Jameson style rodgering! That soon went as I glimpse the huge mountain of washing up, which then brought on extreme annoyance and a few tears about what the outcome of this afternoon would be. Hormones eh?
We reach the Euston hospital in good time and didn’t have to wait long before being ushered into a small room. A wonderful midwife called Patricia talked us through what would happen during the scan and also gave me lots of advice about the birth. I asked about a more natural approach without intervention and she was the first person I had spoken too who was really positive about my way of thinking. She even loved the fact that I had considered having a home birth. Most people I had spoken too previously had all seemed to scare me because it was my first. Ok I am a first time mum and I don’t know if I’ll be screaming for an epidural but she was the first person who I felt was on my side giving me more options. Their is birthing unit in Edware which is pro natural birth but you can have gas & air also. I'll read up more on it on the web when I get home.
I felt confident about the scan but there was still a little side of me that wasn’t sure. I was so looking forward to seeing my little baby again. Cold jelly smeared onto my belly there she was. This time, it really did look little a little person. She danced inside me and the doctor had a bit of trouble checking her over as she moved. I could see her little hands, her profile, her spine, it was so wonderful. I thought I'd be a real woss and start crying again but I was just grinning! The nucal measurements are normal so so far the baby is not at risk of downs. Just have to wait for the blood test results next week to confirm for sure…. Still hard to get me head around what it will be like when the little one arrives!
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